Broke. Busted. Disgusted and not to be trusted. That's how I felt in the end.  Today, fine?  Forgetting I'm Not Everything.  F'd-up, Insecure, Neurotic, Egotistical.   Free, Inspired, New, Energetic.  I'm not fine, I am ok.  We have the right not to be happy all the time. But I have to be hopeful and grateful most of the time...because the truth is that I have made a mess, but I get the opportunity to clean it up. For that, I am really, really grateful.