The spiritual part of recovery for me is like the wet part of a wave...When I live it, I grow.  When I feel it, I am at peace.

From the wisdom of children.

 

Addiction and Athletics; Ruin and Recovery

Hope = Heart Open, Please Enter

Living soberly and taking sober risks is sometimes the hardest thing to do when it comes to intimacy and matters of the heart.  Sex, no problem. Love may equal pain and rejection or it may be the greatest gift ever.  We are told to not rush into relationships in early sobriety and we are told that getting into relationships in early sobriety is like putting miracle grow on our character defects.  After being sober for a few year now, I am learning that practicing the language of the heart does not mean that I can speak wisely about love, but that I can speak more honestly about my own experience with love. I can be more authentic about what I feel and what I want...without manipulation or lies.

True Freedom

On February 17, 2007, I stood before a federal judge as a lawyer who had lost everything meaningful in my life except my family and a desire to find redemption.  The night before I was walking down Michigan Avenue in Chicago and the temperature was 4 degrees Fahrenheit. I silently prayed that God would let me feel and know that He was with me.  The night's wind was so cold that I hailed a taxi and jumped in.  My taxi driver was Nigerian and so was my friend from Atlanta who called me as I got in the cab. 

As I was getting out of the taxi in front of the hotel where I was staying, a big black homeless looking guy came up to me and asked if I wanted my shoes shined.  I told him, "No thanks, bro. It's so cold, I just want to go inside." He asked if I could help him out and I gave him some money.  He looked at it with a surprised face like it was either too much or not enough...then, he looked me intensely and asked me my name.  "Steve".

He held out his had to shake mine and said slowly and deliberately, "My name is Emmanuel."  It was enough hope for me. I was sentenced to 24 months in federal prison.  Life seemed over and I could not comprehend it. I survived it and prospered.  I discovered who I was and developed a friendship with my God.

Irony of Hope and African American History Month

I love African-americans.  I love black people.  I really like people from all over the world, but I love black people generally and profoundly.  I have been accused of being an inverse racist because I am sometimes ciritical of white Americans' insensitivity to the views of all minorities.  As a minority myself, I gain so much strength and inspiration from African-Americans - from people who were treated as "less than" others merely for a pigment of skin color? That is so crazy!!! Just because of my sexual preference, I am judged as different, a freak or "less than" as well.  I do not know where or when I became enamored with all things African or Afro-American, but when I was a little boy, I dreamed of Africa.  I saw how beautiful the women were, how strong and noble the men were and they captured my heart and soul.

 

When I was a young child, I met a very dangerously insane black man at a psychiatrist's office and we spoke heart to heart.  He never once tried to hurt me.  It freaked out my parents and even the psychiatrist, but we connected and I was not afraid for a minute.

 

In high school, I had a best friend, Stacey Johnson, and never shared that I was gay.  He was and never shared it either.  I really loved him, but was afraid to tell him.  I lost track of him and heard he got AIDS. 

 

In college, my best friend and a woman I would have loved to be romantic with, was a beautiful black woman and she remains my best friend to date.  I love her deeply.  She is one of the bravest and dignified women I have ever met.  I met some royalty and some pretty "well born" people that are nothing to the refined beauty of Brenda.

 

I spent a year in Japan in 1985 and of all the things I missed about the USA, it was the infuence of Afro-american culture - Michael Jackson was at his zenith, but Boy George reigned supreme in Japan.  The music, the arts, the sports, literature, fashion and everything black I finally learned to appreciate and treasure. 

 

Throughout my life and especially in sobriety, I see how the African-American story is all of ours, and despite being hated, marginalized, mistreated, discriminated against and take for granted, the gifts of Afro-Americans are riches beyond measure.  In all the sorrow, I found hope. 

The History of Black History

by Elissa Haney

Dr. Carter G. Woodson

Americans have recognized black history annually since 1926, first as "Negro History Week" and later as "Black History Month." What you might not know is that black history had barely begun to be studied-or even documented-when the tradition originated. Although blacks have been in America at least as far back as colonial times, it was not until the 20th century that they gained a respectable presence in the history books.

Blacks Absent from History Books

We owe the celebration of Black History Month, and more importantly, the study of black history, to Dr. Carter G. Woodson. Born to parents who were former slaves, he spent his childhood working in the Kentucky coal mines and enrolled in high school at age twenty. He graduated within two years and later went on to earn a Ph.D. from Harvard. The scholar was disturbed to find in his studies that history books largely ignored the black American population-and when blacks did figure into the picture, it was generally in ways that reflected the inferior social position they were assigned at the time.

Established Journal of Negro History

Woodson, always one to act on his ambitions, decided to take on the challenge of writing black Americans into the nation's history. He established the Association for the Study of Negro Life and History (now called the Association for the Study of Afro-American Life and History) in 1915, and a year later founded the widely respected Journal of Negro History. In 1926, he launched Negro History Week as an initiative to bring national attention to the contributions of black people throughout American history.
Woodson chose the second week of February for Negro History Week because it marks the birthdays of two men who greatly influenced the black American population, Frederick Douglass and Abraham Lincoln. However, February has much more than Douglass and Lincoln to show for its significance in black American history. For example:

• February 23, 1868:
  W. E. B. DuBois, important civil rights leader and co-founder of the NAACP, was born.
• February 3, 1870:
  The 15th Amendment was passed, granting blacks the right to vote.
• February 25, 1870:
  The first black U.S. senator, Hiram R. Revels (1822-1901), took his oath of office.
• February 12, 1909:
  The National Association for the Advancement of Colored People (NAACP) was founded by a group of concerned black and white citizens in New York City.
• February 1, 1960:
  In what would become a civil-rights movement milestone, a group of black Greensboro, N.C., college students began a sit-in at a segregated Woolworth's lunch counter.
• February 21, 1965:
  Malcolm X, the militant leader who promoted Black Nationalism, was shot to death by three Black Muslims.
  
  Read more: The History of Black History Month (Famous People, Women, Facts, Leaders, Events) — Infoplease.com http://www.infoplease.com/spot/bhmintro1.html#ixzz2L6Kw3rkC

Happy Valentine's Day

 
 I am so grateful for the opportunity to know great love and, whether I ever love again, it will be enough. 

Today, I am still not looking for the man of my dreams, I am trying to become him. Today, I am learning to love who I am.

Today, I am full of love for so many people that I am not even sure if I can give enough to one person.  Today, life is a sober adventure and I love it.

Absolute Adventure Radical Recovery

     Two years ago today, I incorporated Absolute Adventure Radical Recovery, Inc. to provide addiction intervention and recovery services to people suffering from various forms of addiction.  The principle behind the company is that life is an adventure and sober life is even more of an adventure.  Like all great adventures, sobriety and recovery require a passion for life, a desire to be better, goals to achieve and maps, compasses, guides, GPS, and support to achieve them.

Since that time, I have completed a SAC Dip from Stonebridge College in the UK, obtained my Certified Addiction Specialists credential from the State of Florida.  Completed ARISE Intervention Training Part 1, become a Board Registered Interventionist, began the Certified Addiction Counselor process and enrolled in a Ph.D. program at the University of South Florida. 

 

Last year, I returned to Spencer Recovery Centers Florida, Dr. Paul's at the Bay as a primary counselor and do interventions across the USA and abroad.  Life really is an adventure and worth all the pain, fear and doubt. 

African American Art & History

 

 

 

 

 

 

February - The Month of Hope

 
HOPE - Hearing Other People's Experience

February - The Month of African-American Heritage and History - And Hope