Becoming authentic

I have many goals and dreams and I also have many doubts and insecurities.  However, in sobriety and in a life of adventure, the most important trait is honesty.  Honesty is more than not lying or only telling the truth.  Honesty is my ability to speak, act and believe without manipulation or deceit. I strive to be authentic and to be true to who I am and what I intend to be.

May - The Month of Intergrity - My Adventure in Restoring Integrity

Yesterday, I went paddleboarding with six friends in recovery and I had set up the trip.  I am one month shy of 5 years of recovery and I was reminded how I would dream of planning adventures for friends - but have neither friends nor adventures.  Today, I have friends and adventures.  Today, I have integrity.  Of all the things I lost to my alcholism, my integrity was the most precious and one of the last things to go...I became a person of many promises and few commitments.  In my recovery, I do now what I was well known for prior to my addiction - I always did what I said I was going to do.  Today, I carry through. I am dependable.  You can count on me.